Yup! It's really been awhile

Well well! I really havent been writting anything alot here lately. Guess I was too tired (lazy) to sit, collect my thoughts and pour it out on the web. But now, I'm doing it again for some reason. Must have been inspired when I read hun's blog. She recently started one and I was really honored that she let me read her blog and the back of her notebook last night (stuff that she was going to put in the blog also). Didn't know that she was hurting inside that much. I was pretty disturbed when she mentioned in her notes that she's going to let me go (although it almost came to that also).

I just find it really unfair that her parents are pressuring her to break up with me just because she's too young to "fall in love". I never once let her compromise her studies, so that we could go out (note: we barely see each other at least once a week, if it's more than that, that's a really big bonus!). Then comes my family background. For God's sake, I'm practically connected to them either way I look at it. My dad knows his dad, my Aunt and uncles knows the parent's. Even their friends parents know my parents. I mean what gives? I know I'm not the most perfect guy out there in the world. Yes I smoke, I drink, I curse, I'm not the sharpest tool in the shed, but I manage with life.

But I'm glad with all these happening around us, we still are together, and I think our bond has even grown stronger ironically. But the one thing I was really afraid of is that when I read hun's notebook she had a phrase written "Is he going to take my heart or break it?" I'm really afraid that one day, I might break her fragile heart. Even though she says that she's not all that nice and stuff, she just doesn't know that she's really one of the nicest, kindest and gentlest souls that I've ever met. And I'm really lucky that I'm with her. She's also so down to earth and simple! Man, if you asked me to make a list on why I love her, the list would just go on and on, it will circle the planet until it gets covered up! Hehe but with the exaggeration aside, all I can say is, I'm really lucky that someone like her loves me back. This is the first time that someone does really love me back, and sometimes I myself couldn't believe it when I read her texts that she misses me and wants to see me. And when I read her email after I showed her the lyrics of her song, she said that she will always be with me till the end, you don't know how big of a smile I had on my face that time. I hope that we are not just saying it now that we want to be together forever (hehe that's a song diba?) just because we're together for about a few months now, but I hope after a couple of years or so, we can still say these words and I guess that's sign enough for me that we are really meant to be forever....