Tuesday, October 30, 2001

Finally I can kick back!!

Tomorrow is the start of our 5 day break! Since it will be a holiday tomorrow and thursday. Might as well do it for friday also!! YIPIEEE!!!! I'm going to Franco's house again because he is throwing a halloween party!! Queenie will also be there that's why I decided to go! I wasn't supposed to go when the guys were only going... I didn't have fun the last time, but now more people are going so I guess it will be more fun than the last time!! I'll be dressing up in a while....

Monday, October 29, 2001

Ground Zero


Oh man!!! Today is test day!!! I still don't know shit about accounting!! Oh man Oh man Oh man!!!! WTF will I do now? Oh well just have to face the music and do what I can do... WISH ME LUCK!!!!

Sunday, October 28, 2001

Accounting Sucks. (period)

Damn it Damn it Damn it!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm so dead for tomorrow's test in accounting!!!! I don't have a clue on what to do (well I have partial knowledge though)! I'm SOOOOOOOOO Dead I tell you!! I wish there will be a really big miracle that the Prof. will make the test very easy or I'll get all her lessons crammed by tomorrow.... *sigh* I just have to pray hard tonite, pray for a BIG Miracle....

Saturday, October 27, 2001

Trying to get things done

Say I'm trying to memorize the poem I mentioned yesterday, and it seems to be going great! I've already got 3 stanzas down... 4 more and I'm done!! I'm taking a break right now, it seems that I can't get anything in my head for some reason!! Oh well hope this will go away... I'll right back again later

Friday, October 26, 2001

Testing Blogbuddy

Hey I'm testing out this program called blog buddy... It's suppose to let you write your entries from this program, instead of logging into www.blogger.com It's kinda neat!! I think this program will help alot!! Hey Queenie returned my call for the first time hahahaha!! I'll write back again tommorow!
Trouble!!!

Yikes! I'm going to have a lot to do from this day on!! Have to memorize a poem, research some stuff on religon class and Study for that stupid subject called accounting... Ok the poem will be easy (well not really), comapred to the two tasks I have to do, it will look like a chicken shoot.... The thing with religon class is that, I have an indecent group... I can picture now that I will be doing most of the work, but this is impossible there are 100 questions to answer and its impossible for me to answer all of them... Well I guess there are a few that will help but this is not the point! They should all pitch in or I'll really kick thier asses!!! Accounting is a diffrent story... Damn I don't even understand a single lesson she is teaching!!! And we are going to have our midterms on monday!? SHIT!!!!!!!!!! I usually don't curse on my entries, but this shows how desperate I am!! I hope there will be someway for me to cram all her lessons into my head in 2 days!!!!! Siiiiiiiiighhh!! I'm in need of help here!!!!

Wednesday, October 24, 2001

Calling in Sick

Man I feel terrible today!!! I shouldn't have gone to the gym!!! I just feel so dizzy right now because of my colds, so I decided not to go to school today and just have a rest! *sigh* But I really needed to go to accounting class, I think we are going to have our midterm in that subject on monday! Monday!!!!!! And I don't know shit about that subject!! I'm so screwed up right now!! I really don't feel like writting right now.... I'm sick, I'm screwed, damn damn damn!!!!!

Monday, October 22, 2001

Hmmm?

For some reason right now, I just feel so uneasy... I don't know really what's the cause... It's a mixture of anxiety and hmm nervouseness... It's so weird...... Hmmmm? Guess I'm just hungry or something... Or I guess I just need to talk to Queenie for some odd reason.... Hey I think it's almost the 1 year anniversary of Elaine and her boyfriend... Well I know I'm not suppose to think of her anymore, but this is different... Well lucky them hope thier relationship will last.....
Mind-Blowing

Last night, well actually around midnight to early morning today, I've just learned some few secrets about someone... I can't and won't say the name here, it's just too personal to write down the specifics here... All I can say is that it's so mind blowing and shocking for me to learn these things... It wasn't negative at all, just surprised I guess... I still can't find the words to describe on what I felt when that person confessed to me... WOW!! is all what I can say... I'm still in awe even right now... The first thing I thought about this morning was that confession... As I said, I don't take it personally, it's just that it was a crazy night alright... You think you know a person that well? Your freakin WRONG buddy! Thats the golden rule I've learned last night! Never over look a person even if you know that person really well... There are even those things that he/she will keep from you!

Well this experience that I just had last night, was really something... Although it was really like a blow in the gut, this will never change on how I look at my friend... In a way this made me closer to that person and we built a solid foundation of trust here.... I think I'll also care for my friend more! I mean there is this weird feeling inside me that our bond has grew, I really hope it will stay this way also........

Thursday, October 18, 2001

Blech!

Ugh! What an ugly day this turned out to be... Had to rush my paper for BETHICS class!! It turned out that I did the wrong format!!! So I wasn't able to attend my first class anymore because I spend the whole time rewritting the whole paper!! Phew glad I made it in time though! But still, it was a yucky day for me!! Didn't expect anything like this would happen! Again I'm really not in the mood to post my thoughts for the day... I guess I feel so uncontented!! And inside I kinda feel guilty!! I think I'm turning into a gaming junkie!! I failed my quiz in accounting then this the paper thing!! Damn, but even though you stop me from playing on those days, I guess the outcome would be the same... I still have my sense of responsibility... I think I just have to work harder and try to cut down on my gaming...... *sigh* Pretty confused right now......

Tuesday, October 16, 2001

Rush?

Today our BETHICS prof asked us to make a paper which is due on thursday! I've done my research, and I think I'll do the paper tommorow night or tonite if I feel up to it... Nothing really happend today... Everything went hmmm let's say, semi-smoothly... And for some reason I don't feel like typing up anything today.. So I'll just end it here...

Monday, October 15, 2001

Bangged up day

So today didn't turn out what I expected.... It was just crazy today... It all started this morning when I planned my day that I'll be going to the gym at 10:30 (yes you heard me right the GYM!)... But it turned out differently... I'm to lazy to type up what the story was... Anyways I was able to get to the gym but it was late already... I finished up at around 1:30, went back to my old house (in pasay) to eat lunch at take a shower... I left the house at around 2 something and I got to school at 2:30.. I had to buy some M&M's for Queenie because I didn't make our scheduled appointment at Starbucks which was at 1:30.... I rushed to the classroom and good thing I wasn't late!

Ok that was just the beginning.... Next we had our Computer class and I wasn't able to run the program that the teacher ask us to make... It was so frustrating that my other classmates were getting and I wasn't!! Damn that pissed me off, but it didn't ruin my day... And the last thing that just made my day was, my PS2 which can't play U.S. games cannot be fixed!! My classmate told me he knew a place where I can get my PS2 fixed up.... I gave him the games the unit and the money!! After searching of all the shops I can find... I thought this time it was going to happend!! But damn it! He said they cant fix it! *sigh* And I bought around 5 games which cost $50 a piece... Now its totally usesless.. I doubt anybody will buy my games because it is already old.......... Damn it to hell!!! I'm just so pissed right now............

Friday, October 12, 2001

Hot yet happpy!!!

Hey hey! i'm at school right now, just killing some time until my next subject... Mannn the weather just kills you right now!! Apperantly, it just rained hard outside! And now all the moisture is evaporating!! It's so freakin hot to stay outside now! So that's why I decided to stay indoors and surf the net here at school! Hey I just took my quiz in my PREMAN class and I feel confident I'm going to ace it hehehe... All that studying paid off!!!! And oh yeah I'm so happy that we are not going to have a make-up quiz in my Accounting class!! *woohoo* to that!!!! Oh yeah I forgot to also mention why I have nothing to do right now. It's because that our Prof. for our computer class has a headache... *hehe* She even told me personally that she can't make it and to tell the class that there will be no lecutre today... This is quite a day!!! And also another good thing is that Jed will be coming over to the house! Jed is our lead guitarist in the band and I invited him over to just jam and I guess play around with the computer... Hope everything just stays the way as it is!

Here is the lo-down on Forgetting: Day 3... I'm not really that affected right now... There is still a smile on my face and I feel very light and just plain happy today... I guess it's from all the events that have been happening now... I really hope this is no phase of mine or I'll really go nuts!!!

Oh well that's enough!! I'll be continuing my post at home! Almost have to go back to class ....

Thursday, October 11, 2001

Troubleshooting

I tried to yet make another face lift to my blogspot, because I found the fonts to be tiny... After trying out other templates which were suggested by blogger, I still stuck with this one... But I had to fix up some problems, as you can see, my email link is gone, because whenever I edit that part, the whole line just screws up... I have to wait for a reply on a post I made on the forum board... I hope I get this fixed....

By the way, results on Forgetting: Day 2 was successful! Didn't think too much of Elaine today, and I think I'm ending this day with a smile... Hope I can keep this up!!

I have to study for another quiz on my PREMAN class and arrrrrrrrrghhh!!!! I have an accouting make-up quiz!!! DAMN DAMN DAMN!! I hate that stupid subject!!! I hope I can pass it this time... *sigh* It will take a miracle to make me pass.... A BIG miracle....

Wednesday, October 10, 2001

Forgetting: Day 1

Today is the start of a new beginning for me... No more complaning, ranting or dreaming about how Elaine should be mine and all that crap... I'm trying now (take note: trying) to forget all about her... With all the thinking I did, I'm convinced that I have no chance in hell being with her... So why cry about spilled milk?? It's useless... I'd rather be happy and enjoy life... But to tell you the truth, it's really hard giving up on her... Damn I just have to face reality and just get with the program... I can't have her, end of discussion... But life isn't like the movies... Sometimes it could be sweet or it could be full of shit.... Well this is my first day afterall... Let see what happends...
But *sigh* why did this have to happend? I wish I could go up to God now and asked him why did he have to do this to me? What wrong did I do?? It's so freaking mysterious that this kind of thing had to happen... Is this some sort of test?? I just have a lot of questions right now, but sadly, these questions will remain unanswered.... Also, I've got this terrible terrible feeling that I can't let loose.... I don't know if it's anger or sadness... I'll just never understand myself...

Oh by the way, on a lighter note: Me and Queenie are friends again *yehey*... *hehe* After saying sorry for a million times and giving her some chocolates as a peace offering, she forgave me and we are talking again.... Damn, it serves me right!! I'd better learn from this lesson and not do it again...

P.S. to any of my blockmates reading this: Thanks for stopping by!!
Oh yeah I forgot also to mention Queenie got pissed at me today because I kept on teasing her how short her shirt was... *hehe* Guess I said too much, I'll apologize to her tomorrow! I hope she accepts it... She was kinda cold on me the whole day today... Serves me right!!!!
Trying to forget the Unforgettable

Hey it's midnight and I'm still not falling asleep... Well I'm trying though... Guess I'll hit the sack after this....

*sigh* I'm in this stage of just trying to move on now... Just trying to forget about Elaine and just freaking move on... I kinda done it before, I just hope I can pull it off again... *sigh* been listening to alot of Jeff Buckley for the past couple of days... His songs serves as my "mood" music... Don't want to get into any heavy stuff now, although I just bought a CD of Boy hits Car *hehe* it totaly contradicts on what I just said... Hey I tried to find the CD of Jeff Buckley, but Tower ran out of stock... Got to look elsewhere... Well I'm barely making any sense now, sleep is just calling my name... Well to sum up everything, I promise my self to get a life and get this Elaine issue out of my system... I'll really try my best just to look at her as a friend now... It will be useless at all if I just keep my hopes up and having feelings for her... Like fighting a loosing battle right? Ok thats it!! Gnyt!!

Sunday, October 07, 2001

Waisted Weekend

Ahhh another weekend has past and I totally waisted it! Besides going out today for lunch, that's about my weekend! Most of it was spent here at home! Fixing up my computer, playing some games and being a total hermit!!! *bah* They should really give me the car for the next weekend! I'm going nuts already!! I feel like an anti-social, just stay at home and speak to no one! Well tomorrow will be the start of a another hell of a week... Still am thinking of Elaine (which I know you guys are tired of hearing of already).... Hope this week will be a bit more interesting... And if it is, you will be the first one to know about it....

Friday, October 05, 2001

Strange day

I feel so worn out today and I don't know why... It's soooooo weird! Anyways I'm not going out tomorrow just going to stay at home (as usual)... *sigh* and I was planning to do something for my weekend... I'm starting to just always stay at home every week.... Damn they should really give me a car now...

Wednesday, October 03, 2001

My War within

Today we had our recollection... At first it was kinda boring and stuff... Then he gave us this activity... We have to write down an event or a person who made us unhappy, then you also have to write how did you overcome the pain and what did it do for you? For some strange reason, I've been thinking about Elaine again the whole day... It was really weird... So I guess that would be a perfect example right? So I wrote a brief sentence about it and I also wrote how I partially overcame it.. Well actually before I did, then she just comes back to my mind all of a sudden... But at the end of the day, I was really satisfied, I'm kinda in the "accepting" mood again... I just sometimes get too confused often... Not thinking straight nor logically... I guess I'm really like that when I care for a person... *sigh* is it right to say that I hope I just forget all about this? But the contradiction there is that, I'm just denying my true feelings, which in the first place got me into this mess.... So right now I fighting a war within me... A war that I fear I will never win.....

Monday, October 01, 2001

Yawwwn!

I woke up today at 10:00am and I was suppose to go to the gym (like I always do)... But strangely, my mom used the car and lucky for me I wasn't feeling up to it going over to the gym... So I guess I'll just write something up now and also I'll make up for not writing a post yesterday... Today I know there will be a quiz at accounting... Damn it! I have to study for it later!! I doubt I will pass on today's quiz, I can't even understand her lectures.. In any case, I hope I'll still pass... *hehe* Can't wait to see Queenie and ask her about the concert... Hmmm did something happend?? *hehe* I'll find out later!!! Well nothing really much to say for now... I'm still leading a boring life and I still think much of Elaine until now... Sometimes I can't bare it anymore!! Good thing I have my computer to get my mind of everything for a while...