What was I thinking?

Trying to force myself to write some more, you know just to keep the brain going from time to time. Anyways, well I've been really feeling like a lazy ass bum when it comes to school. I guess I'm kinda tired of my schedule because every tuesdays and thursdays are veeeery long, but fortunately, it's our last week then next week will be our finals. So there goes my first term, whizzing by me with out me realizing it.

Oh well enough of the academics, I just want to be honest with myself now, I recently found a prospect, someone whos uhmm not exactly nice hehe but shes sweet. Thought something would work out, but I was so blind to the fact that she already had a bf. OK OK I'm not going into self PITY mode, since all of you already seen that side of me. I'm just trying to say that, why do these things have to happen to me. I'm almost seeing all of this as a joke and actually laughing at it. But the worse part of all of this is that, even though I knew that she already had a boy friend, I had a couple of attempts to ask her out (which were all failed FYI). The last attempt, which was last saturday, I tried to ask her out to a movie, but I should have taken the hint. I feel kinda bad and guilty that I was doing the wrong thing. I promised my self that I wouldn't do this again, but I can't just help myself and I guess I wasn't thinking. Oh well, that's done, I guess I just have to look again huh? I'm not really that depressed, but I just feel kinda sad which in time will surely fade away...

This google thing?

I just got this google toolbar, it's supposed to block out pop ups and since I usually use google as a search engine I guess it's practical to have. Long and behold it also had a blogger short cut, so I don't have to go to the website and post my entries, trying to put more effort into writting now 8(. Well anyways, nothing really has been happening to me for the past month or so. Finals week is fast approaching, turning over projects and stuff are really going to be a pain in the ass. But asides from that, nothing, I say again, nothing has changed since (well I got a new phone though a p800 something I really wanted during the summer time and smart made my wish come true hehehe). SO that's that, sorry for being really boring, but I can't just help it. I'm just calling what I see...

Nothing new really, just tired...

This week was really crazy. Been busy with this case study for our Strategic Marketing class and boy was it tough. Had to really think and all that crap !!! Well anyways the reporting is done and today I'm just planning to bum around (like always since it's a sunday and all). I can't believe that monday is coming again so soon. Been so busy that I almost forgot about my weekend :( but I hope this week will be more laid back. Well I really have nothing new to talk about. Just the same old things day in day out. Asides from aquiring a new game (Jedi Academy leeched by my good buddy jed! All hail the torrents) nothing really has changed drastically. Ok so there, I'm kinda lazy to think right now, so I'll just end my entry here...

Lookie lookie!!

So I got my DSL connection back (THANK GOD!) and I added something new in my blog. I call it KINQUE TV!! Just figured out how to let my webcam upload pictures to my blog. It takes pictures in 5 minute intervals (subject to change) and posts em here on my blog. Neat huh??

Anyways this week was hell. I was able to survive 3 projects and 4 midterms (with me not studying for any of them because I was very busy doing my projects). I'm just glad it's all over and I didn't burn out. Although, I hope that I get a good enough grades for my effort. Can't think too much anymore, will post again sometime this weekend...

Weekly Round-up

Still not on DSL yet, still waiting for them patiently. I just saw 4 episodes of CSI. We bought the whole first season on DVD yesterday and I'm glad for that. Looks like I'll spending my weekend at home, my buddies are busy hitting the books because it's already midterm week this coming week. Our midterms are a week after theirs, although I have 2 already next tuesday, but I guess I'll be hitting the books on monday. I got the whole day to study anyways. Nothing really interesting happend this week. We had our year book pictorials last wednday. Ahh first come the pictorials then next thing you know it, BOOM! Grad practice. Where does the time go? Most probably I'll be moving to Australia and try to find work there, but thats not definte yet, just a possibility. Still not really sure what I'm going to do with my life after I finish school. Might be harder than I though, but what isn't? Anyways, I got over what I'm supposed to get over with. had a talk with her and everything seems to be fine. But I must admit I miss those times with her. Wish I could have something like that again...

Trying to get over things...

My first post after moving into a new home for almost a month and a half. Haven't been on-line after yesterday. Haven't gotten my DSL connection hooked up yet because of some stupid technical issues. Too complicated to explain right now. Anyways, what's been happening with me you ask? Well I noticed the last post that I kept on mentioning about her. Well, I'm sorry to say that there is no more her. Why you ask? Long story, don't want to really get into it, but let's just say I got royally fucked. I'm not mad, just hurt. Trying to get rid of the lonliness that I'm experiencing for some reason. Also just realized that this will be my final year in school, two more terms and I'm finally free (or am I?). Oh yeah, been hooking up with my two old friends, Pam and Queenie. It's like being a roller coaster ride with those two. The fights, the complications, but in the end we are still all friends. I just realized that this will be my last year with them, so I'm trying as much as possible to spend some time with them before I regret it. But still, I can't help fight the lonliness, I'm really getting tired of this. Going to try to figure out how to get rid of all of this BS. Maybe hitting the bag tonite will help? Oh well, let's just see...

1 day weekend :(

First week of my summer classes has just gone by and I want to end it TODAY. I just can't believe that I have to go back to school again tomorrow. *sigh* I should stop whinning and talk about something else, but what the hell? This is my blog, deal with it. Anyways, despite school being a pain in the arse, I had a great saturday to compensate for. I was out with her again yesterday and had lot's of fun as usual. It's just funny that I never get satisfied after seeing her for a day. I wish I could see her more, but thats that. I hope to see her again next week though! Ok enough of that, I'm starting to sound like Dave's blog what happend to the angst, the depression, the sadness? Unfortunately folks, I think it's going to be all pretty and pink for quite a while. You can all blame it on her and not me...

I feel old

I was browsing through my messages on my phone, then I read Jeelai's message when she greated me for my birthday. "You're 21 na you old bastard..." and now my knees are giving up on me. The left went first and im forced to wear a knee support whemever I do any physical activities and now the right is giving way also 8( This sucks!! I have to put those hot compress bags over my 2 knees now (I can now hear dave yelling over the distance "You old GIT!!"). Anyways, with all these aches and pains, I was able to lose all the pounds I gained over the holy week and then some! So I guess it's not all that bad! I just hope my back doesn't give up on me also.

Today was a smooth day, hot, yet smooth. Didn't do much in school today either. Just sat down, listen to my prof speak and waited for the bell to ring. Anyways, two more weeks of this kind of toruture and I'm FREE! Then I hit school again on June 2 *DOH!*. Like I said, this ain't the best summer of all, but I'll make sure to make it up next year...

Lousy Summer?

It's just too fucking hot to walk around, too hot that it gives me migraines. I gained some pounds back and I just heard from dave that the guys are going to puerto on may 2-4. Lucky me, I can't make it. Why? I'll be missing 2 days of summer class and one of those days is a saturday which the prof in my Quant-t class always gives a quiz on that particular day. Hooray me. Been looking forward for all summer to hit the beach, but I don't get to go. I'm starting to hate my summer class and it's only the 2nd day. OMFG what did I get myself into. What kind of summer is this? Day by day, my summer is getting shittier and shittier.

Oh and a final note: She's not home yet. I hope she doesnt get too wasted and comes home soon....

Summer is giving me a headache (literally)

There's not a day I get attacked with a migraine because of this dumb heat. As I'm typing my blog, I'm still pestered by this stupid headache of mine. I'm not sure if it's because of the heat or I'm thinking too much or maybe a mix of the two. Any case, it's really annoying. For some reason I just can't settle down. Something is keeping me anxious, maybe I'm just too paranoid, but for some reason I'm getting all stressed up for nothing. Sounds weird, but as much as I want it to go away, I can't do that right now. Damn, I wish I could just figure out whats wrong with me and let the anxiety away.

On a final note, Summer classes start tomorrow. POS!! I just got out of school and now I'm going back again. I hope I survive my summer this year.

Where the F*ck have I been??

After a few months of bening shamelessly lazy on posting my blog, I've come back to once again share to you what goes on with my crazy crazy life. Lot's has been happening. I passed all my subjects, it's summer and I finally found someone special :D. I just hope everything turns out for the better with her this time. Anyways, back to the topic on hand which is: SUMMER!!! I've been hitting the gym almost non stop, doing all my cardio related activities and cramming them into my week. This summer, I hope to take out my shirt on the beach with PRIDE. Yes ladies and gentlemen, I'll be taking off my shirt in public and be proud of it!! Well sorry for the short post, I'm off to daves house and going to crash there for a night. Going to watch band of brothers. WWII goodness :D

One last night for freedom

Me and the guys well specifically two guys only Dave and Jomark went to Ponti. My cousin and the others should have followed but couldn't because of unforeseen circumstances. So we our pact for a new NO SMOKING life-style, we had to keep our fingers off those evil sticks and suck it up. But all we sucked up was 2nd hand smoke and me a Jomark were banging our heads from the temptation. POS!! THIS IS GOOD!! THIS IS RIGHT!! Clean lungs for everybody HOORAY! We survived one night of a smoke free gimmick!

I'm glad that me and Jomark left early, just felt sorry that we had to bail on Dave though. But we just hate crowds, the beer was freaking expensive and we had no smokes. Nothing much for us to do there but to gawk at all the chicks who pass by. Damn going there made me kinda frustrated at myself. Why do the bastards there always get lucky?? Anyways, I guess it's just late and I had a long night, so I guess this will just frustration of mine will all be over by tomorrow. So that's that, my one last night for freedom and I end it with frustration. Let's see what happens the next weekend...