Still tired and it's already tuesday
It's already tuesday and I still feel so tired. I think I left my brain at that bar last saturday. I swear, I can't think straight. Luckily I was able to write some sort of answer in my quiz this afternoon. My energy level hasn't recovered and right now, I honestly don't know where this blog post will go. I don't know what to talk about now. Like I said, my brain is somewhere else. Maybe tomorrow will be better, so pardon my post for today. I don't wan't to hear any sermons fron you JED!
Tuesday, November 26, 2002
Saturday, November 23, 2002
A chance to post before I leave
Today was really hectic. This morning I woke up at 8:30 and arrived at the gym around 9:30. Then had to go to Pasay to accompany my cousin from states, Stephanie, (who arrived yesterday btw) to go pick her friend up at the airport. After that we went to PowerPlant to have some lunch, they walked around a bit then we headed to manila polo club. Did some more shopping 'cause there was a bazaar over there. Good thing my cousin Doy came along, we got something to eat, had a few smokes and talked about how we should tackle this diet we are doing. After the girls went shopping, we went home to Doy's house. After a few minutes, I got up and headed back home to change. Now I'm waiting for my folks to come home because we are going to have a dinner at the Podium. And after dinner we are planning to go out to this bar in makati. As I said, I'm really tired today. It's a good thing I had the chance to go home and type my blog up. 2nd straight weekend where I have to show some people from out of the country around. I'm not complaining, but I'm starting to look like a damn tourist guide. But I'm having fun with my job! And soon, this tourist guide will be hanging his boots and glugging down some beer!!
Today was really hectic. This morning I woke up at 8:30 and arrived at the gym around 9:30. Then had to go to Pasay to accompany my cousin from states, Stephanie, (who arrived yesterday btw) to go pick her friend up at the airport. After that we went to PowerPlant to have some lunch, they walked around a bit then we headed to manila polo club. Did some more shopping 'cause there was a bazaar over there. Good thing my cousin Doy came along, we got something to eat, had a few smokes and talked about how we should tackle this diet we are doing. After the girls went shopping, we went home to Doy's house. After a few minutes, I got up and headed back home to change. Now I'm waiting for my folks to come home because we are going to have a dinner at the Podium. And after dinner we are planning to go out to this bar in makati. As I said, I'm really tired today. It's a good thing I had the chance to go home and type my blog up. 2nd straight weekend where I have to show some people from out of the country around. I'm not complaining, but I'm starting to look like a damn tourist guide. But I'm having fun with my job! And soon, this tourist guide will be hanging his boots and glugging down some beer!!
Thursday, November 21, 2002
It's this time of the week where I ponder about where my week went
Ok now I noticed that every thursday, I go and say I'm glad that it's thursday tomorrow is friday and it's the weekend. I'll probably get drunk yada yada yada... Lol a repeating cycle that I seem that I can't get out of. I guess school makes your week go by faster. I'll be complaining that there's school on monday then next thing I know BOOM! It's friday and I'll be drinking. Not that I'm complaining, it's just that I find it funny how I never notice where my week has been.
Today went by quite well. I was able to see ela today. Nothing too grand, we just said our hello's and went our ways. She then texts me around dinner time and told me she hasn't been picked up yet. We exchanged a few texts and after a couple replies she stops texting me back. Lol as usual, the girl who keeps me hanging up there to dry and then submerges back to her life. Also, I texted Elaine. Yeah a shocker for me too. But I figured, since I can't talk to her at least I could do is just text her good luck with this make up exam for our programming class. It's written, so it's quite a pain if you're going to take a test on programming and it's going to be written. Surprisingly, she texted back and told me how she did. I replied congratulations and that was that. And finally, this girl in our statistics class also spoke to me. Well not really spoke to me, but just said that our assignemt won't be due today, 'cause I was looking for someone to copy off from (hehe kinda lame but what the hell right?). Nothing too big, just wanted to mention it and IMO it was one of my interesting points of the day. To sum things up, today was good and I hope it gets better tomorrow.
Btw, my cousin from states should be arriving tonite! I guess I will be drinking this weekend!!
Ok now I noticed that every thursday, I go and say I'm glad that it's thursday tomorrow is friday and it's the weekend. I'll probably get drunk yada yada yada... Lol a repeating cycle that I seem that I can't get out of. I guess school makes your week go by faster. I'll be complaining that there's school on monday then next thing I know BOOM! It's friday and I'll be drinking. Not that I'm complaining, it's just that I find it funny how I never notice where my week has been.
Today went by quite well. I was able to see ela today. Nothing too grand, we just said our hello's and went our ways. She then texts me around dinner time and told me she hasn't been picked up yet. We exchanged a few texts and after a couple replies she stops texting me back. Lol as usual, the girl who keeps me hanging up there to dry and then submerges back to her life. Also, I texted Elaine. Yeah a shocker for me too. But I figured, since I can't talk to her at least I could do is just text her good luck with this make up exam for our programming class. It's written, so it's quite a pain if you're going to take a test on programming and it's going to be written. Surprisingly, she texted back and told me how she did. I replied congratulations and that was that. And finally, this girl in our statistics class also spoke to me. Well not really spoke to me, but just said that our assignemt won't be due today, 'cause I was looking for someone to copy off from (hehe kinda lame but what the hell right?). Nothing too big, just wanted to mention it and IMO it was one of my interesting points of the day. To sum things up, today was good and I hope it gets better tomorrow.
Btw, my cousin from states should be arriving tonite! I guess I will be drinking this weekend!!
Wednesday, November 20, 2002
Been thinking of "her" again...
Ok ok to clear things up, the reason why I thought of Elaine again just tonite is because she was very pretty today. While in the car, I was chatting with my friend aicel. Told her about my frosh days with elaine when we were still talking with each other. Told her about that time during our recollection that she was chosen to recite something. And during her whole time of reciting, she was looking at me. Something interesting that I will most probably won't forget. Oh yeah, her citizenship or greencard or whatever for the states has been approved. So she will be moving there when she graduates. As I was saying to Aicel, in the chat room, I wouldn't know how to feel about this. If I felt sad about it, what would be the use of that? Wasted tears IMO. But, theres something that just draws me to her. A part of me can never let go her, there will always be room for her in my heart even though I have learned to move on. Somethings or some people are just not meant to be forgotten. I would love to forget all of this, but for some reason I just can't. I wish I could, but I just can't. Why do I always torture myself like this...
Ok ok to clear things up, the reason why I thought of Elaine again just tonite is because she was very pretty today. While in the car, I was chatting with my friend aicel. Told her about my frosh days with elaine when we were still talking with each other. Told her about that time during our recollection that she was chosen to recite something. And during her whole time of reciting, she was looking at me. Something interesting that I will most probably won't forget. Oh yeah, her citizenship or greencard or whatever for the states has been approved. So she will be moving there when she graduates. As I was saying to Aicel, in the chat room, I wouldn't know how to feel about this. If I felt sad about it, what would be the use of that? Wasted tears IMO. But, theres something that just draws me to her. A part of me can never let go her, there will always be room for her in my heart even though I have learned to move on. Somethings or some people are just not meant to be forgotten. I would love to forget all of this, but for some reason I just can't. I wish I could, but I just can't. Why do I always torture myself like this...
Monday, November 18, 2002
Long Overdue!
Sorry guys for the blog blackout. I guess Jed, Dave and Nic wasn't able to have the chance to look into my crazy life for the past few days. I've been bringin around my friend from Australia, Jose (who's name is surprisingly filipino for a white guy, because his dad is filipino, just do the math). I had to pay him back for he also showed me around his country when I was there. I'm glad he had a good time, since he kept on telling me that he had fun for the past few days. I have to thank my friends for that especially my cousin for helping me bring him to places which I've never been to (talk about being a wall-flower). With all the fun I had this weekend, sleep became a 2nd priority. I haven't had a good nights sleep since Saturday, so I'm looking foward tonite to make it all up.
So now I brought you up to speed, today was just again, ordinary. Nothing interesting to report, no sparks, no gimmicks, no nothing. I'm just confused about Ela. Last Saturday, while watching Harry Potter 2 (and yes it was a good movie), out of the blue she just texted me that she's interested in this new model of Nokia. Oh yeah and she started the text with "panget" hehe I tease girls with this words when I'm trying to say the opposite. I dunno really, IMO, when somebody calls somebody panget, I guess thats a sign of being close for some weird reason. Don't let me have to explain the unwritten law of relationships, but for some weird reason, it's one of those signs you get. I really try not to think about it, but from time to time, it just becomes a reoccurring thought. It just sticks to your mind, her being unpredictable is just driving me insane. Girls are always like that, they just leave you up there hanging, with no clue whatsoever to what they are goin to next. Bah! I should just find another girl to get in to, she is just really one of a kind (not to mention she lives in navotas). But there's this strange attraction I find in her, yet, if this continues, this attarction of mine will most probably fade away...
And before I end my post for today, I would just like to say that my school, has a really totaly fucked up system. But I'm just glad that they accepted my CAF for next term and considered me as part of the block. Falling in line for 10 hours is no joke and I'm glad I'm not part of that stupid joke.
Sorry guys for the blog blackout. I guess Jed, Dave and Nic wasn't able to have the chance to look into my crazy life for the past few days. I've been bringin around my friend from Australia, Jose (who's name is surprisingly filipino for a white guy, because his dad is filipino, just do the math). I had to pay him back for he also showed me around his country when I was there. I'm glad he had a good time, since he kept on telling me that he had fun for the past few days. I have to thank my friends for that especially my cousin for helping me bring him to places which I've never been to (talk about being a wall-flower). With all the fun I had this weekend, sleep became a 2nd priority. I haven't had a good nights sleep since Saturday, so I'm looking foward tonite to make it all up.
So now I brought you up to speed, today was just again, ordinary. Nothing interesting to report, no sparks, no gimmicks, no nothing. I'm just confused about Ela. Last Saturday, while watching Harry Potter 2 (and yes it was a good movie), out of the blue she just texted me that she's interested in this new model of Nokia. Oh yeah and she started the text with "panget" hehe I tease girls with this words when I'm trying to say the opposite. I dunno really, IMO, when somebody calls somebody panget, I guess thats a sign of being close for some weird reason. Don't let me have to explain the unwritten law of relationships, but for some weird reason, it's one of those signs you get. I really try not to think about it, but from time to time, it just becomes a reoccurring thought. It just sticks to your mind, her being unpredictable is just driving me insane. Girls are always like that, they just leave you up there hanging, with no clue whatsoever to what they are goin to next. Bah! I should just find another girl to get in to, she is just really one of a kind (not to mention she lives in navotas). But there's this strange attraction I find in her, yet, if this continues, this attarction of mine will most probably fade away...
And before I end my post for today, I would just like to say that my school, has a really totaly fucked up system. But I'm just glad that they accepted my CAF for next term and considered me as part of the block. Falling in line for 10 hours is no joke and I'm glad I'm not part of that stupid joke.
Thursday, November 14, 2002
Drained out
For some odd reason, I just feel so tired for the past few days. Tired both physically and mentally. I haven't been doing anything strenuos activities lately, asides from going to the gym, but that's suppose to help you get energized. Hmmm, maybe it's in my diet, since I completly taken out any forms of carbs like rice, bread, pasta and POTATOES(jed will not last a day w/o this). But, I really don't know, I wish that by next week my body will adapt and will be functioning normal again.
Anyways, like always, nothing really interesting has been happening lately. Ela doesnt seem to be interested with me anymore. I really don't know actually. Haven't been talking to her. I tried texting her but she never replied. So, nuts to that! I wouldn't want to dwell on that issue anymore. So, as I said, nothing to report. It's going to be friday tomorrow and the weekend is finally here! I wanna drink some beer and just hang out like usual...
For some odd reason, I just feel so tired for the past few days. Tired both physically and mentally. I haven't been doing anything strenuos activities lately, asides from going to the gym, but that's suppose to help you get energized. Hmmm, maybe it's in my diet, since I completly taken out any forms of carbs like rice, bread, pasta and POTATOES(jed will not last a day w/o this). But, I really don't know, I wish that by next week my body will adapt and will be functioning normal again.
Anyways, like always, nothing really interesting has been happening lately. Ela doesnt seem to be interested with me anymore. I really don't know actually. Haven't been talking to her. I tried texting her but she never replied. So, nuts to that! I wouldn't want to dwell on that issue anymore. So, as I said, nothing to report. It's going to be friday tomorrow and the weekend is finally here! I wanna drink some beer and just hang out like usual...
Monday, November 11, 2002
Busy umm.... Killing?
Just aquired the ever so popular game called Grand Theft Auto: Vice City. Very very violent game, I mean violent is just and understatement. Go walk around in this city thats supposed to resemble Miami. Theres a beach, it's sunny and there are lot of people that you can prey on. Beat, slice, shoot or just simply whap them with your baseball bat. You can also jack the cars and other criminal acts. I just love that game because you can escape into a world which has no rules (well the police chase you, but you can easily avoid that), no standards, no NORMS to follow. Had a bad day? Load up the game and beat the crap out of a pedestrian. I call it "therapy".
Anyways, back to things which are real. I just learned that I'm still part of the block. Thank god! Lining up and adjusting my schedule is just a pain in the ass. And speaking of scehdules, I saw my schedule for next term and it looks like its going to be better than this term. I only have one class at night and its only on monday. But the catch is, its 3 hours. Wooo here we go again. Just have to suck it up and think that it's only going to be for one day.
For some reason, I bumped into Ela twice today. The first time, she texted me and told me that she was in school already. Hours before her class, so I asked her if she wants to meet up. Then the 2nd time, I saw her coming out of the womens CR and we talked and she fixed her schedule. Pretty interesting day today, not to boring, not to lame. Just normal, the way it should be.
Oh yeah and one last thing, sorry for the late posts. Been playing alot of Vice City. hehe I just need my therapy
Just aquired the ever so popular game called Grand Theft Auto: Vice City. Very very violent game, I mean violent is just and understatement. Go walk around in this city thats supposed to resemble Miami. Theres a beach, it's sunny and there are lot of people that you can prey on. Beat, slice, shoot or just simply whap them with your baseball bat. You can also jack the cars and other criminal acts. I just love that game because you can escape into a world which has no rules (well the police chase you, but you can easily avoid that), no standards, no NORMS to follow. Had a bad day? Load up the game and beat the crap out of a pedestrian. I call it "therapy".
Anyways, back to things which are real. I just learned that I'm still part of the block. Thank god! Lining up and adjusting my schedule is just a pain in the ass. And speaking of scehdules, I saw my schedule for next term and it looks like its going to be better than this term. I only have one class at night and its only on monday. But the catch is, its 3 hours. Wooo here we go again. Just have to suck it up and think that it's only going to be for one day.
For some reason, I bumped into Ela twice today. The first time, she texted me and told me that she was in school already. Hours before her class, so I asked her if she wants to meet up. Then the 2nd time, I saw her coming out of the womens CR and we talked and she fixed her schedule. Pretty interesting day today, not to boring, not to lame. Just normal, the way it should be.
Oh yeah and one last thing, sorry for the late posts. Been playing alot of Vice City. hehe I just need my therapy
Thursday, November 07, 2002
Mixing and Matching
My school system really sucks. I don't even know if next term I will be an irregular student or with the block. There's just too much damn technicalities that I don't want to get into, but bottom line, CSB has a crappy ASS system.
I've been thinking also, I'm just so tired with this courting business. I mean girls are really starting to give me a headache. Drains my energy away and you think it was worth it? Sometimes I like to think it is. I'm just tired with this BS that you have to be this extra ordinary guy so that this girl can notice you. Sure people say "just be yourself". BS, do you think thats enough? Well for my case it isn't. Whats so extra ordinary about me? NOTHING. God, I'm just so tired with this whole game. It sickens me that I always have to go through this cycle. I just wish some girl can just see right through me. To see the real me and not some guy who must be uber good 100% of the time. It's just so hard being that perfect all the time. Saying the right things at the right time, virtually impossible. Bah I don't know, kind of mixed up right now and my trail of thought is going no where. I guess what I'm trying to say is that, I'm beginning to become envious with other peoples happiness in their relationships. Never did I once felt the love of another person or the warm touch of their hands clinching to mine. I just want to hold that person that I'm in love with and never let go. Unfortunately,it's always me giving the love, but never recieving it back. All the girls that I fell in love with gave me signs. SIGNS?! WTF man?! Jesus Christ, signs for a reaction. Oh well, this is not a perfect world and perfect is the farthest adjective that can describe my situation right now. As I said in my last post, I just feel this void in me. A longing for something, something great. Something that would change my life forever. I've been living this plain old boring life too long now and it's starting to become stale. I just hope I don't become too insane while looking for my so called "patch for my soul"...
My school system really sucks. I don't even know if next term I will be an irregular student or with the block. There's just too much damn technicalities that I don't want to get into, but bottom line, CSB has a crappy ASS system.
I've been thinking also, I'm just so tired with this courting business. I mean girls are really starting to give me a headache. Drains my energy away and you think it was worth it? Sometimes I like to think it is. I'm just tired with this BS that you have to be this extra ordinary guy so that this girl can notice you. Sure people say "just be yourself". BS, do you think thats enough? Well for my case it isn't. Whats so extra ordinary about me? NOTHING. God, I'm just so tired with this whole game. It sickens me that I always have to go through this cycle. I just wish some girl can just see right through me. To see the real me and not some guy who must be uber good 100% of the time. It's just so hard being that perfect all the time. Saying the right things at the right time, virtually impossible. Bah I don't know, kind of mixed up right now and my trail of thought is going no where. I guess what I'm trying to say is that, I'm beginning to become envious with other peoples happiness in their relationships. Never did I once felt the love of another person or the warm touch of their hands clinching to mine. I just want to hold that person that I'm in love with and never let go. Unfortunately,it's always me giving the love, but never recieving it back. All the girls that I fell in love with gave me signs. SIGNS?! WTF man?! Jesus Christ, signs for a reaction. Oh well, this is not a perfect world and perfect is the farthest adjective that can describe my situation right now. As I said in my last post, I just feel this void in me. A longing for something, something great. Something that would change my life forever. I've been living this plain old boring life too long now and it's starting to become stale. I just hope I don't become too insane while looking for my so called "patch for my soul"...
Wednesday, November 06, 2002
Waking up at 9:10
I missed my accounting class today, because like the title says, I woke up at 9:10 and my class was at 9:20. Go figure...
Today, I whored my phone so much that I had to change batteries with my friend. Used the chat program that I got yesterday and my hand was burning because of the heat from the battery (those things can leave your hand numb). As usual, nothing really interesting happend today. Tomorrow will be thursday, then comes friday. Wow what a quick week. And to think that, nothing cool has been happening.
Hmm lemme try to pour some things from my itty bitty brain of mine. Well, I really don't have any issues to rant about right now. As I said, life ain't that interesting anymore. This whole Ela thing has passed over. As well as that Elaine bit. Haven't been thinking about those things really. But I sometimes feel that there's really something missing in my life. Hmmm, maybe I need to accomplish something? Or maybe I just need somebody. A certain somebody who would hold me whenever I feel alone or who will be my ear whenever I want to rant about life (whenever I'm off line). I don't really what I want right now. All I know is, I'm missing something inside me. I just dont feel as whole as I used to be. Sure I got my health, my friends, my folks and those things which are important to me. But I need to fill this "void" in my soul. I guess I have to try to look harder and hope that I can grasp when the oppurtunity arises.
I missed my accounting class today, because like the title says, I woke up at 9:10 and my class was at 9:20. Go figure...
Today, I whored my phone so much that I had to change batteries with my friend. Used the chat program that I got yesterday and my hand was burning because of the heat from the battery (those things can leave your hand numb). As usual, nothing really interesting happend today. Tomorrow will be thursday, then comes friday. Wow what a quick week. And to think that, nothing cool has been happening.
Hmm lemme try to pour some things from my itty bitty brain of mine. Well, I really don't have any issues to rant about right now. As I said, life ain't that interesting anymore. This whole Ela thing has passed over. As well as that Elaine bit. Haven't been thinking about those things really. But I sometimes feel that there's really something missing in my life. Hmmm, maybe I need to accomplish something? Or maybe I just need somebody. A certain somebody who would hold me whenever I feel alone or who will be my ear whenever I want to rant about life (whenever I'm off line). I don't really what I want right now. All I know is, I'm missing something inside me. I just dont feel as whole as I used to be. Sure I got my health, my friends, my folks and those things which are important to me. But I need to fill this "void" in my soul. I guess I have to try to look harder and hope that I can grasp when the oppurtunity arises.
Tuesday, November 05, 2002
You study to pass... Right?
What a lousy test I took today. I studied for hours and hours and I feel like that I'll end up failing the test which I took this afternoon. Anyways, today wasn't all that bad. Was able to get some programs for my phone. Now I can surf and chat while I'm away from the computer. It's cool if you really think about how technology advances so quickly. What will they think of next...
What a lousy test I took today. I studied for hours and hours and I feel like that I'll end up failing the test which I took this afternoon. Anyways, today wasn't all that bad. Was able to get some programs for my phone. Now I can surf and chat while I'm away from the computer. It's cool if you really think about how technology advances so quickly. What will they think of next...
Back to normal
My 4 day vacation is over and now it's back to school. Yesterday, Ela didn't show up in accounting class and I think she wouldn't be attending in the future also. I offered to expalin to the teacher about her situation. I got an 82 for my midterm grade, which was totally unexpected, but nevertheless glad that I passed. The other profs didn't give out the grades yet. Bet they were lazy during the break like I was. Who could blame them?
Today I still have one more test believe it or not. Statistics and it sucks like hell!! I studied yesterday during my break and now I'll be studying some more in awhile. Just thought that I'd get this blog out of the way first. Like always, nothing interesting has really been happening. Just trying to get on with my life, not thinking too much about Ela because I know things will never work out between us. So that's that, wish me luck for my test today...
My 4 day vacation is over and now it's back to school. Yesterday, Ela didn't show up in accounting class and I think she wouldn't be attending in the future also. I offered to expalin to the teacher about her situation. I got an 82 for my midterm grade, which was totally unexpected, but nevertheless glad that I passed. The other profs didn't give out the grades yet. Bet they were lazy during the break like I was. Who could blame them?
Today I still have one more test believe it or not. Statistics and it sucks like hell!! I studied yesterday during my break and now I'll be studying some more in awhile. Just thought that I'd get this blog out of the way first. Like always, nothing interesting has really been happening. Just trying to get on with my life, not thinking too much about Ela because I know things will never work out between us. So that's that, wish me luck for my test today...
Saturday, November 02, 2002
Flat Day
Been sitting on my ass for the past hmmm past 3 hours or so. Been playing this game called Natural selection. Another great HL mod and something to get addicted on. Wasn't able to post yesterday since I was out the whole day. At the morning I went to the south to go visit the dead (heheh sounds creepy). Then we went to our farm in cabuyao and stayed there till late afternoon. Night time I was even able to play some badminton. Today I was supposed to go meet up with Nic, but my mom forgot to tell me that I don't have a car to use today, so POS to that. I decided to stay home instead and go play Natural Selection with the guys. And besides, I'm still tired from yesterday. So basically it's a veeeeery slow day today. Not really slow, I actually lost track of time and now I look at the clock in my task bar and it says that it's already dinner time. Wooo, what a way to spend my day, I miss this kind of slacking off.
Oh yeah btw I almost forgot to mention this. Ela and her no good bf broke up. She discovered that he was seeing someone else. Fucking player, that asshole doesn't deserve her. Man, to think that she was thinking of getting back with him. She kept on consulting me, but I told her, don't do it. Its his loss and never was yours. I hope she listens to me, I swear that bf of hers should burn in hell. Frellin retard....
Been sitting on my ass for the past hmmm past 3 hours or so. Been playing this game called Natural selection. Another great HL mod and something to get addicted on. Wasn't able to post yesterday since I was out the whole day. At the morning I went to the south to go visit the dead (heheh sounds creepy). Then we went to our farm in cabuyao and stayed there till late afternoon. Night time I was even able to play some badminton. Today I was supposed to go meet up with Nic, but my mom forgot to tell me that I don't have a car to use today, so POS to that. I decided to stay home instead and go play Natural Selection with the guys. And besides, I'm still tired from yesterday. So basically it's a veeeeery slow day today. Not really slow, I actually lost track of time and now I look at the clock in my task bar and it says that it's already dinner time. Wooo, what a way to spend my day, I miss this kind of slacking off.
Oh yeah btw I almost forgot to mention this. Ela and her no good bf broke up. She discovered that he was seeing someone else. Fucking player, that asshole doesn't deserve her. Man, to think that she was thinking of getting back with him. She kept on consulting me, but I told her, don't do it. Its his loss and never was yours. I hope she listens to me, I swear that bf of hers should burn in hell. Frellin retard....
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