Life's mysteries

Tonite, Queenie and my buddy Franco will be going on a hmmm lets just call it an outing *hehe*... The well known band called the "Coors" will be performing tonite... This is thier "make-up" concert, because they were suppose to first perform here 6 months ago... They didn't make it the first time is because that one of them had an ear inffection... I hope they will both have fun tonite! Especially Queenie! We talked on the phone last night and apparently she couldn't really decide if she would go or not... The reason being is that, Franco and Queenie had a bit of history together that really didn't go quite well... I will not really get into that right now, but all I can say is that she is quite uneasy being with Franco compared to before... I told her just to loosen up and have fun... Just think of it as hanging out than a date... Then she told me but what will the others say? I said who cares what others will say? Let them make thier own conclusions! You know the truth and thats what counts... I just really hope she will just have fun tonite and I think it's one of her favorite bands performing... So I guess she won't blow it....

What about me? As usual, stuck at home, playing games and watch some T.V.... "Your becoming a couch potato already" quoted from my mom... I think she's right, but I wouldn't be like this if they gave me a car right? I hope she see's the problem right away... But I think we are going out to eat a restaurant to attend some party... Who's throwing it? Beats me? I'm just there for the food, but I really don't feel like going out... Well I've burned enough calories from thinking and typing up this post... I'll go back now being a spud...

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Just killing some time right now and I figured I would right up something right now because I doubt I will post an entry tonite.... The reason being is that we are going to have a meeting over the Return to Castle Wolfenstien game server... I hope more people will come tonite compared to last week's scheduled event... Damn! I'm craving for a grand session with that game tonite! I really hope people will come!

Ok ok enough with my gaming obssesions... I just finish reviewing for my two quizzes today... One is for PREMAN and one for APPBUS (Java programming class). Speaking of JAVA, I'm really excited on how to code a JAVA program... I would really want to make one, and maybe I will post it up here to show off my new skills *hehe*,,, But I really hope I can pull it off and keep the same level of interest that I have now... Oh yeah, and most of all keeping my patience... I was never known for my rock solid patience when it comes to doing school work... Well I think this would be a exception... I wouldn't really call it school work, hmmm but I wouldn't call it fun... Maybe it's a bit of both... WIth interest and curiosity fueling my flame, I really hope it won't die out.... its almost 1:00pm already going to change for school in about 20 mins. or so...

Wish me luck for tonite!!

Hi Queenie!! takaw mo talaga sa nips hehe jk!

*hehe* sorry for the rant! This will never happend again!!

Is it love or is it obsession?

Instead of attending the most boring class in the world (bibstud), I went to starbucks with Queenie today... We ate lunch there and I paid the bill... So while eating we discussed life's problems... She told me hers and I told her mine... Well it was quite interesting, got to know lots about each other again... After telling our problems we just comforted each other and hoped for the best... But what struck me the most today was, she said that I really loved Elaine (which was also one of my dilemmas in life). I said "no way", because for one, things will never work out and the other was she is already a year with her boyfriend... But Queenie insisted and reassured me, that's already love... Think of this, she really doesn't do anything for me and at times, she even ignores me... *sigh* could it be? It kept me thinking for awhile and I think I partially agree with her... Although it's a bad idea to totally fall in love with her, but I guess my feelings for her will just be there... Life for me is kinda screwy right now... This problem of mine is like a bad stain on a white shirt... It's just stuck there no matter what... At times I just simply try to forget it... It worked for a quite a few times, but she comes back to my mind... Yes I know it's sad, but it's just really hard for me to get over her... Well for consilation, I always remeber the times when she didn't have her boyfriend yet... The times when she first texted me until when we went out to have dinner... *sigh* those were the days and I will never forget them... So everyday, I always fight a loosing battle, but somehow I manage to hold on... I try not to think of her too much anymore, but it's litterally unavoidable... Good thing I have good friends like Queenie, to at least take my mind of her for the time being....

P.S. I hope you wouldn't think this is a bad case of being obsessed? Well is it?

Patched up (well partially though)

I tried to patch things up with my friend and blockmate, Pam... During my accounting class, I planned on texting her a nice quote... Part of the plan would be proper timing... I figured while I was in Edsa she would be probably be home so thats what I did... Unexpectedly she replied and thought that I sent the wrong message to her... I told her I didn't and from there on our conversation continued... While we were exchanging messages, I tried again to patch things up with her again(first attempt was I think 4-5 months ago, not really sure). This time, things are seem to be going the way it should be... Although, one of my last messages I told her that are we going to be talking again in class? She said "bahala na" or in english "let's see". I guess everything can't be fixed in one day... Maybe she needs more time? But I have a feeling that we will be talking in a few weeks (well I hope we will)... I just missed talking to her, that's all... *sigh* I really don't know what drove me to text her again... Maybe it's her eyes... You can never forget how pretty her eyes are...

Oh yeah, today was a strange day for me... I don't know if I should feel happy or sad... Okay just hear me out for a sec. Today our first class, our prof. gave us new seating arrangements... She arranged us alpahbetically... This was good, because everytime when a prof. arranges us alpahbetically, I end up seating beside Elaine... *hehe* Yes it's Elaine again... She was strangely nice to me today... Because there are times that she really doesn't notice me at all... But here comes the sad part, our prof. was really pissed at us because we were too noisy... Hell, whats new right? So for thier ignorance, I too had to suffer the consequence... She gave us a pop quiz... Luckily it was kinda easy... So I guess today, in a weird way was special? I don't know really?? For some reason I just feel too banged up... So I'll just end my long entry here (sorry about that)

Living with the pain

Today in BETHICS(Philosophy) class, Our Prof. kept on pounding us with questions... They seem simple enough to answer, but you really have to think about what he is asking... Just like any philospher, he wants to know why? Why does it have to be this way? Why is God doing this to us? Is there a God in the first place?? All these questions were asked at us... Also, he assigned different philosophers to research on... My guy was Immanuel Kant, a russian philosopher... The prof. asked me a few questions about his thesis, then he asked me a question related to his philosophy... I felt so dumb I couldn't understand his question and I blurted out the wrong answer... There are so many things I wanted to say, but he just told me to answer yes or no... After the questioning, he then went on to theodicy(about a supreme being, better known as God) He again tossed us with questions... Why do we have to suffer? Is it divine right? Or coinsidence? Then it kept me thinking... Yeah why do I have suffer this problem I am facing now... Namely liking Elaine(my blockmate)... I know, I'll never have a chance at her because she already has a boyfriend, which is also my blockmate... Why? Why? WHy??? From all the punishments, suffering or whatever you want to call it... Why did God choose it this way? Whats the purpose??? I can't really shake my feeling for Elaine.. I know, I know, I guess you guys are so tired of hearing about Elaine, but it's just to hard to forget and move on... I guess it's almost a year already (go on tell me how a big of a looser I am) but it's the hardest thing to do for me right now... Queenie has been telling me to just move on and forget it... But you can't just not love someone... Especially if you see that person everday... *sigh* It's just so Ironic.... If I have been true to my feelings in the first place I guess I wont be bitching all the time.... So the moral to all of you out there: Never hesitate or you loose... you loose Big

Bad day, Bad Weather, Bad Life

*sigh* We are having bad weather today.... It rained hard this morning and I couldn't get enough sleep... So when I woke up I was kind of sleepy still... I was hoping also that we wouldn't have any school today because of the rain, but it turned out that the rain only lasted in the morning *groan* So I'll be leaving for school in an hour or so... Still have to complete the take home quiz that our prof. gave us last week! And I just remebered I have to do a report for english class tomorrow! Mannn here I go agian!! I just love going CRUNCH TIME!!!!

Wake me in a year or two ok!

Phew! Another day at work.. err.. play I mean

Just got off from playing Counter-Strike again... Man I'm getting tired from shouting at my teammates hehehe! Up to now I still can't believe how cool the voice chat function is working out! Hope people won''t abuse it!

Anways, my very very good friend at canada just wrote an email to me and I replied her back with another loooooong letter as usual *he he*.... She told me she got a new car... It's a Honda Accord 3L V6 engine.. Woah!! Wish I had a car like that here!!! But I guess I'm happy with my toyota! I just love the interior!!! Well school starts again tomorrow, I'll also be picking up my mom at the airport after class.... She just came back from Thiland... Is it a business or liesure trip? I guess bit of both... She just loves flowers, thats why she went there to go buy 'em! Hope this week will turn out fine!

Addiction to the max!

Arrgh! I wasn't able to write anything yesterday because I was too hooked up on playing Counter-Strike.... I guess you heard of the game, it's very famous all over... I got hooked up again because the new voice chat feature! Instead of typing on what you are going to say, you just say it! Kinda neat huh? There are still a few bugs to work out, but it turned out ok for the first try.... Well I'm stuck at home today, trying to kill time by playing Max Payne... Another famous action game... Hehe you might have noticed I'm such an avid gamer! Who doesn't love games anyway right?? I think I'll check back here again later, I'm going to continue on playing!! Oh yea just to leave you with something, I got this line off My Girl 2, I saw it on HBO a week ago and there was a line that caught my attention... It goes like this: "Don't be a poet, be a T.V. repair man..." Sad huh?

Yup I'm still alive

Hey I decided to write back here again... My prof for my computer class is not here so I'm just trying to kill some time! Lot's of things had been happending so far... Just too much to mention... But I will never forget about what has happend in the states... I still pray for those who were hurt in this terrible tradegy... I hope nothing more evil will happend like this again.... Well, everybody has left the computer lab and it's my turn to go... So I'll continue to write my thoughts at home.... It's nice again to be back!