Something to vent before going to bed

Ok just want to write up a few things before I go to bed. My level of self esteem is really low right now. It's like I lost my self confidence and I keep on thinkin that I'll bound to screw something up badly. And there's Ela, she is really my new "drug" right now. But I got to fight it. Jesus Christ, it's like one of those Elaine problems again, except you take the INE out and basically its the same thing. Ironic isn't it??