Weekend DAY 3

Ahhhh it's the final stretch of my cool weekend. Was able to things I wanted to do, basically just lie around and play with my games all day long *hehe*. School starts again tomorrow ugh gotta face work, traffic and BS again. I'm spending my final hours of today by just kicking back. Really got nothing to do that much right now. Although, I gotta study for my accounting midterms for this wednsday. The prof said it will be a 70 items test UGH gross!! I just hate accounting! Hope I'll pass the midterms this time!

Also, was able to chat with Karen again today. It was really cool that I was able to talk to her again and stuff. And speaking of freinds, I finally got hold of queenie, but unfortunately she was doing stuff for her former guy*. But at least, I was able to talk to her quite abit. Well that's going to be it now. Going to try to figure things out on what I have to do tomorrow, but I guess it will be nothing really. Ohh boy back to reality and I hope its going to be fun!!!

*see archives at around december-january

Weekend DAY 2

Phew! Just finished a game of C&C:Renegade! A first persion shooter version of the popular strategy game, Command and Conquer. I can't describe how great this game is! Team work is an absolute MUST in this game! Nobody can go in solo and win the game. Cooperation is the key word and we just pulled it off with my squad (DEMO). I miss playing games until the wee hours of the morning, this is my first time to be playing this late since the last term. It's realllllllllllllllllllly tiring, I'm going to bed in a bit...

Today btw, we watched the movie as I mentioned and it was so-so. Didn't like it too much, but it didn't bore me. Mannn it's getting late, I think I'll post again tomorrow and I bet I'll be staying around the house the whole day!

Weekend DAY 1

Time flies by really quickly, can't believe its already 8pm ughhh. The guys came over and we just played alot of ps2 (that 2nd hand piece of crap). That dumb boot disk doesnt work 100% damn damn damn. And tomorrow will be another day. My mom said that we will be catching Collateral Damage the movie by arnie. I hope it will be good. IMO Arnie is just one over sized muscle head. Well I don't know, holywood can surpise you in different ways!

Hmmm I'll be also trying to get a report from Queenie on what had happend to her fashion show. Tried to call her up just know, but she is talking to someone else (like she doesn't run out of people to talk to). Sometimes it's just disappointing when I want to talk to her on the phone, I have to wait in line like I'm queuing for a ride in a theme park. I tell you, it's exactly like a rollercoaster ride, you que for so long then you step in, get thriled for 5 mins and the ride is over. Once I get to talk to her BAM! She hits the call waiting button and tells me that she has someone else to talk to... ugh! And in school I could barely talk to her straight, because she keeps on hanging out with her other girl friends. So what am I suppose to do? That's why I guess I wont be joining her in a retreat session that our religon teacher is planning. It's because it will be the same at school, I won't be really having anyone to talk to, well as in real talk not just idle chatter. *hehe* Guess she is wanted by lots of people and I just have to cope with that.....

Ahh Finally the weekend!

It seems that I've been waiting for a decade for the weekend to come. I've been bored and stuff and I think I'll be playing alot of games like I use to do *hehe*. Jed and Dave are coming over hope that will be a blast. I'm at school right now and strangely, I've been posting logs here for the past 3 days? Weird, I used to hate posting here at school but it became a habbit *hehe* Anyways, enough of this senseless ranting.....

Btw guess whats going to happend tonite at school! My very own Queenie will be modeling tonite!! W007!! She's been chosen (or lets just say forced) to model for her friend that is taking up fashion design. *hehe* Of course she doens't want to do it, but I bet she will be a good model! She has the height and the body for it!! Hope she doesn't trip or anything tonite! And I bet she's going to blow everybody away!!

So once again WELCOME WEEKEND save me from the insanity!!

Stil some more boring posts

Arghh! It's just frustrating that nothing really exciting happends. I'm just bored out of my wits and keep on posting these boring logs. Well anyways, the weekend is fast approaching and it will be a long one since on monday there will be no classes *w007* more time with the ps2 LOL. Maybe Jed can come over to play that scary ass game agian!!

Hmmm life is pretty lame right now. I think I'll be talking more on my ps2 games than my life, since they make my world (words from a loser). Oh yeah speaking of ps2 games, I was scared out of my pants when I played Metal Gear Solid 2. I guess you would know that sound when you get discovered in the game. That loud sieren like sound. Argh!! Since I hooked my ps2 to my AV receiver, it kicks up the sould quality alot resulting to making the sounds very distinguishable. Anyways, I'm just a big frady cat and I lead a boring life!

Linear Week

Sigh... Everyday is always just the same. I need some excitement, variation or just something to look forward to this week. Although, Jed and Dave are coming over to the house. They are going to crash over and at the morning we are trying to make an instrumental song for my grop work in LIT class. And the rest of the day Jed will try to finish the horrible horrible game called Silent Hill 2. I borrowed the game from Franco 3 days ago, but since then, I never got the disk out from the box. I'll never dare to play the scary game *lol*. Well I hope I'll some fun for this week since midterms are just about to be done so I think I'll be going back to becoming a bum...

Ps2 with a Twist of Irony

Sorry for this late post, I've been "busy" or just lazy to write up a post. Crazy things have been happening lately, I've already bought my new ps2 but *damn* I'm just a failure when it comes to consoles. The ps2 is fine and all, it plays the games I wanted to, but the disk to load the fake game is just a copy, thus making it to boot up harder. I know this is complicated to understand, but let me just say, here in the Philippines Pirates rule!! *hehe*. So I asked for a replacement disk for the "boot disk" amd the shop told me to call them up on thursday. Also, if I wanted the original boot disk I have to pay extra for it. DAMN THEM MAN!!! Screw that shop!! After getting the original disk from them I'll never buy anything from them. It kinda bugged me for the past few days, but now I'm kinda over it. Oh btw, colin my dearest fan hahaha I got those games you mentioned as in all of them!!! Jed and dave is coming over this weekend, why dont you come over din!!

Valentines Wha?

It seems that the day I was ranting about turned out surprisingly ok. *hahaha* Never did once I feel that love-BS I was anticipating. Well good thing it never did happend! Today was really another crazy day. I really don't want to get into too much deatails because it was more on the ugly side. Queenie again told me she has troubles with some her friends. The usual, you know.... Can't believe also tomorrow is friday! Another week has gone by without me knowing about it. Midterms will also be hitting us next week so I guess I'll be out for a few days? But I doubt that *hehe*. I have to "study" well seriously I have to for two subjects which are full of technical terms.

Oh yeah I might also be buying my ps2 tomorrow, if mom gets the money from dad. Hmmm I'm really quite unsure yet whether to buy again or not. Just too much issues floating around my head. Hmmm gotta think straight this time. I hope I'll make the right choice

For this Valentines "BS" day log, I'll leave you with a quote from one of the greatest movies I've seen so far (Vanilla Sky)

"The sweet ain't as sweet without the sour"

Screw Tomorrow

Tomorrow will be that dreaded day called valentines. Who the hell made up that day anyway? It just sucks ass!! Btw, I also read my poem, which I wrote yesterday, to Queenie. After reading it to her she was impressed, then I asked her to who do you think I wrote this for? She immdiately replied "Elaine". I said nope, its not for her, guess again! Then she told me that she was really tired and didn't want to guess. So eventually I told her straight that it was for her. She was touched and all and thank me.
I guess the reason for not writting for Elaine is because, I'm really tired from this crap. She knows I had feelings for her so whats the use showing them now when she loves someone else. At first it was kinda fun, but now it's getting boring for both me and her. So I decided to write about to the person who I owe so much to. And it really feels nice doing something really nice for a person who you care for. It just makes you all warm and fuzzy inside. I hope good changes like this in me will still continue. Even my day today was great for some reason, I really do hope it will just stay like this.......

Remebering the Old

This morning I was supposed to go to mass with my folks because today is Ash Wednsday. Since there was school today and the church was pretty near, we just walked it out. As I was walking to church, eventually we would pass my alma matter. While passing by, I remebered how I spent my 13 years in this damn school. Bitchy teachers, tons of homework and the lowest kind of peer preassure. But I also too had my moments in that school, but strangely, negativity just popped in my head. I guess it was just early and I lacked sleep. So right now, I'm just burning time until I go to school. My schedule is really crazy today because I was supposed to go to virra mall this afternoon to go check some prices for a new ps2 (btw I sold that old piece of crap, so now I'b buying a new one). I hope the mass at school will be early, so it won't mess up my schedule that much. Also, next week is MID TERM WEEK! Ugh! Have to go study this weekend (like I do it all the time). Hope I do well this time. Wait, I'll just be honest here, let me rephrase that. *ahem* I hope I just pass everything! There ya go *hehehe* although I must set higher goals for myself and I have to do it soon....

Poem for my best friend

Hey I was able to make a poem for lit class. It supposed to be in an iambic pentameter form, but it really does not follow the syllable coun't *hehe* screw that I can't write properly with it. So here it goes hope you folks like it:

You picked me up when I was down and dirty
You called my name when nobody wanted to
You held my hand when I was lonely
You painted my day when it was blue

You whispered to me when everybody yelled
You came to me when nobody was there
You cleared my mind when I dwelled
You gave to me that what is rare

I thank God he gave me to you
I thank the stars they guided me to you

Official Post

Ok this will be my official post after the facelift, last night doesnt count because I was very sleepy!!! Anyways, first of all, I want to thank JED CRUZ my main man for helping me out with designing my stupid template... It doesnt look that good because I just borrowed it. I'm thinking of rewriting the code, but there is a furious debate within me from doing so. You might have noticed the banner below, as I said this is the site of my good buddy Jed. Cool comics so CLICK on it and read it ok! It's worth your time, trust me.

The reasons why I placed my blog on a hosted site because I wanted to put more media into my blog. I've noticed that my posts were so boring, no pictures, no music, NO NOTHING. So this time, blogging will be more interesting and I hope you my readers (if there's any) will be more motivated to read about my boring life. I've started a new blig Chinese new year is tomorrow and I feel I'm starting a new life! I hope this will be the mark of a brand new beginning. KONG HEI FAT CHOI!

Major Facelift

Ahhhh FInally after hours and hours of work I got my blog on Geocities. I tell you, I spent the whole day working on this stupid thing *lol* I hope to get more traffic. As you can see also I was able to get a comment function up by YACCS, I hope you guys reading this will be able to give comments and stuff. I'm really tired now I guess I'll do more tomorrow. THANK GOD FOR DSL!!!!


P.S. I would like to thank my good buddy and fellow squad member Jed Cruz for helping me out with this dumb coding fot html. Make sure to check his site out here. It's an online comic strip site, I want to invite you guys to read his stuff!! It's really funny!

OMG! What a DAY!!

Phewwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww What a day all right..... I tell u, today's events were so unexpected! First of all the I was planning to watch a movie with queenie today at the Power Plant, but that failed since me and my folks are going to watch another movie at the same mall... They wanted to watch at 7:20 but I will never make it because I have to bring home queenie and I doubt I will be back in time... So we decided that we will just eat lunch and buy her the bag I promiced her... While going home through the High Way, I was pulled over by a police man because I wasn't following the roadsign (which was to go left).... I did't notice the road sign so It's really my fault and all... Boy was I in a JAM!!! If they get my license, I'm sure to be found out by my folks (because I told them franco was bringin queenie home).... OHHH boy then Queenie suggested to give him some cash to bribe the sucker! So I did, I waved out my hundred peso bill and *tada* he suddenly becomes nice to me.... DAMn man lost a hundred bucks but I was able to get out clean..... So I brought her home then went back to the mall again.... I sat down at subway and I rested... I just sat there from 4:40-7:00 damn I needed the rest! Then we went to see black hawk down... IT WAS GREAT!! It was worth the wait I tell you!!

To sum everything up, today was crazy but fun day... I had a blast with queenie and I hope she did with me!! One of my most memorable weekends *haha*

The BS is gone, but I still lag!

Damn ISP giving me a headache! I got everything fixed now, the only thing remaining is the slowwwwwwwwww internet speed! I'm supposed to be on DSL but my speeds are at modem speed... WTF??? It's really pissing me off! They want a price increace but the service still sucks?? WTF??? Mann I'm sick of all this fraud! Screw PLDT SCREW The government!

Technical BS!

Arrghhh! I'm very frustrated from whats happening to my computer... I just upgraded to XP and my first try I had it good... Then I installed some patches for my different programs then things started screwing up... Not to mention my DSL speeds have been slowing down... It's about a modem speed claimed by DSLreports.com... Damn it, it really bites... I have been tweaking for the past few days and not getting enough sleep because of it! I was planning to sleep early and wake up late today but I forgot to give Queenie's accounting book the day before so I'm in school an hour early before my class.... I'm trying to kill time here in school by surfing but I don't think it's working.... Mannnnnn I'm just so freakin sleepy right now and I still have classes at 6pm... I think when I get home I'll go catch some zzz to renergize!!

Zooom!

Wow things have been happening really quick!! Remeber about Queenie and her guy? Well they've been found out and the first few days she was feeling terrible... She even cried on monday first thing in the morning... That was how bad the situation is... But now, things have been cooling down... As much as possible, the problem has been controled and toned down abit... Although, I wish that guy would stop calling her regularly... As if nothing happend between them... Well in the other hand it's nice that he is not forgetting Queenie and the relationship they had... But I wish he would do it when things are really cool between him and his girlfriend... I just feel like smacking him on the head....

Well as for me, about the elaine issue, I'm just over it now... I don't feel that bad anymore and I guess I've faced reality... I really don't dwell on the subject anymore and I won't start it here... I'm at school right now, we had make up classes this morning and I glad I came! The students who attended today's class will get plus 10 points for the next quiz! WOW!!! just for attending! ITS a freakin steal man!!!! I'm also waiting for my good buddy david to text me and tell me that he is on his way home... sighhhh it's pretty boring here right now... Queenie and the others left so I'm stuck here alone.. Hehe but I guess I'm already used to it by now...

Oh yeah and last night I caught Idle Hands on HBO... Its a sick movie and I don't recommend smart people to watch it....

Trying to Get Over it (again)

I'm at school now using the internet kiosk... I was off early since we just had a quiz for our first subject... I hope I can pass it.... Anyways, I was glad that Elaine wasn't "ilang" with me today in class... Her reaction to me was normal, so I too tried to play it as normal as I can... But for some reason, I'm always was looking at her... If it wasn't for the quiz I would, be staring at her all day long.... Before I came here I went first to the chapel... Seeking for guidance with the Lord.... I'm really so desperate now, I just got lost all over again.... I'm trying now to cope with everything that is happending, but it's too darn difficult... I prayed that I would really find my answers soon, I really hope I could find them.... I just heard the bell ring a few minutes ago, so I'll be heading up for my last class of the day.... I just want to end this day now..............

"It's Like I Died Again"

God, the past few days were aweful... So this what happend, Saturday afternoon, I texted elaine and asked her if she did her homework in ORGANBE (organizational behavior)... She said she wasn't able to do it yet because she doesn't have a computer to do it on... So once again, the hero that I am, I offered to do her homework... Of course she was kinda hessitating but I reassured her that I can do it.... So after that I asked her why aren't you out... She said there was nothing really to do anyway.... I said why dont we go out and catch a movie on next saturday.... After a few texts she finally agrees... And of course I was really happy and stuff... Thinking that I'll be getting my second chance with her... but I felt that there is something wrong to this picture.... And I really hate it when I'm right... While watching a movie on that same day, she suddenly texted and apologized for raising my hopes with her since she is still patching things up with her boyfriend and saturday is not really a great idea.... Woah man... Hold the phone..... I wasn't able to watch the movie properly nor believe on what I am reading... But I collected my feelings and tried to finish the movie... So once the movie was over, me and my folks sat down in this veitnamese restaurant and I started to reply.... I said that I'm sorry for being foolish for inviting her and stuff... She said that I was just being there for her and she thanked me... I said that I'm glad she sees it that way and I also admited to her that I still have feelings for her and I couldn't shake it.... Then here comes the hard blow, she said that she was flattered but, she still loves her boyfriend, if she was able to give her love to me she would, but she really does love her boyfriend.... *sigh* From then on eating wasn't really a good idea... I felt like braking up, if I wasn't in a public place I would just curl up and cry.... For some reason swallowing was really a difficult task.... Regret filled me up and I was just sad.... One of the saddest days of my life... being rejected twice........ It's so god aweful that I try to forget that day, but I can't.....
Right now I'm still trying to recover, tommorow will be monday and I don't know on how will I react to her... I guess it will be still normal but everytime I will be seeing her, it will be more painful now.......... *Sigh* Sometimes even death comes to mind...... I just love her.... If only I could have her.......

Still mixed up

Since we were dismissed from our last class early, strangely, Queenie asked me to go and eat with her... So we end up staying in Mcdonalds... I bought her some fries and Ice tea... So while eating we talked and I asked if she was able to talk to elaine yesterday.... She did and she said that she really didn'l like the idea that she loves her boyfriend so much... I told her, well if she really loves him we can't do anything right?? But here's another line that blown me away for the day... elaine said that "kung kaya ko lang ibigay ang love kay james na binibigay ko kay Jayson( boyfriend ) dati ko pa ginawa pero hindi ko lang talaga kaya"... DAMN MAN.... Right now I'm pretty am confused on how to feel about this... Certainly I kinda feel flattered that she knows that I exsist, but still, the feeling of regret, the feeling of me longing for her and my love has grown... I mean these past few days are really crazy... Now I don't know if I can shake up my feelings for her as easily as before... Hell I was having a hard time already before and now I hear these things from Queenie... I'm just going nuts thinking about it.... Right now, I really don't know what to do... This is the first time I've been so lost in my feelings that I just want to give up... I just wished that I could have told her how I felt before... Just a day to change everything.... If I had elaine, it would be the happiest and most wonderful thing that could happend to me.... I wouldn't ask anything from the lord again because I would be the happiest man in the world.... But reality bites.... I can't take the truth anymore....

Damn it, it's just so frustrating that why I still love her......